My husband Tony was very sick at the time and we really didn’t know what was going to happen to him. Our children were worried, I was worried, and my mind immediately went to the worst. How will my kids survive without a dad? How would I deal on my own? We think we’re living this life for you, God; we’re believing for You to do amazing things in our life – why is life this hard? Long story short, it took about a year to get him well with therapy. And God gave me time to be ministered to during all of this. We were so overwhelmed and so hopeless when God reached in and gave us hope. Now, Tony is recovered and it’s a total miracle. By God’s grace, he is recovered!
During that time not only was the enemy attacking my family, but he was speaking lies into my life. The enemy was saying, ‘I might not attack you, but I’ll attack the closest thing to you– your family. And you, Ana, will be a caregiver for the rest of your life.’ And I responded with ‘Oh no I’m not.’ I knew better! God’s word is more powerful than any scheme the enemy had against me. God just spoke to me saying, ‘Ana, if you will just trust me and let me take your hand, I promise, I will use your story for my glory” and He has for 14 years.
Even if you’re overwhelmed in your circumstances, if you will allow God to overwhelm you with His love and grace, your life will never be the same. It’s amazing how right after all of the enemy’s attacks, the body of Christ rose up and ministered to us in ways I can’t even explain. The body of Christ partnering with the word of God is what got us through that time. Ladies–you have got to get ahold of the word of God and worship. That is what carried me and carries me still. Now, don’t think it was all easy. It was hard. God challenged me to serve Him, and I didn’t wait until everything was perfect to go plant seeds and live for Him. Some of the lies the enemy will tell you is that you are too far gone. He’ll convince you that you’re too messed up for God, that you’ve done too much wrong for Him to love you, and that you’ll be judged by others if you serve. THAT IS NOT TRUE!
You don’t have to have everything perfect to be used by God. You don’t have to wait until your life looks like its without blemish. If you did, you’d be waiting forever! Life isn’t always easy. We make mistakes, we’re imperfect, we’re all sorts of messed up but His faithfulness to us remains. Until I see His face, I’m going to run the race and live for Him.
Just by allowing Him to use me, I’ve grown in my faith and produced so much fruit from that. Friends, continue to sow your seed, believe that He will provide an answer for whatever your need is. Serve Him no matter what place of life you’re at. He is so worth it!
This verse has become my life verse, and I want you all to know that it’s a promise to us:
‘Those who sow with tears
will reap with songs of joy.
Those who go out weeping,
carrying seed to sow,
will return with songs of joy,
carrying sheaves with them.’
Psalm 126: 5-6
Sow the seed He’s given to you even when it’s hard, and you’ll return with songs of joy. I hope this story ministers to you as it does to me. I am in such awe of how God carried me then, and continues to take me further in my walk with Him all because I kept serving Him. “